David here: I just want to say to you all that I usually don't think very highly of myself. My entire life I thought I was a mistake and a failure. I guess my life would be best described as a struggle. My girlfriend passed away from natural causes, near death experiences myself, my best friend died on a motorcycle, never met my father, lost everyone I cared about except for my mother and have been alone ever since. etc etc not here for sympathy or trauma dumping. I truly failed everything I tried. I sucked at basketball, math, reading, basically everything. To cope with my lack of academic achievement I would just resort to playing in the woods, because I could teach other kids about various animals and insects I would find. I had finally felt like I had value. I would dedicate countless hours and hours to the "conventional" activities school provided. So many tears were shed. I usually came in last place in anything related to k-12 except triggernometry (sexy inverse secant f(x), Vectors and those "special" angles amirite?)and always had to work much harder than other students. I recently (a few months ago) had a father figure (ex Baltimore fire captain over 20+ yrs service) in my life tell me that I need to stop being so hard on myself and that the negative self talk is stopping me from being great at whatever I plan on doing. He told me to write down on a piece of paper my Skills, talents, and passions and give myself credit because I tell him all the time that I don't think I can do it (join special forces). He said that I need to start thinking highly of myself because if I get discouraged by the daily grind I will never make it through, that positive reinforcement is more powerful than negative self talk. So after long considerate thought, I realized that being a SF sniper is my life's calling. So I said fuck it, I'm going to think highly of myself because if you shoot for the sun you'll hit the moon in the process but if you shoot only for the moon you'll never reach past your highest expectations of yourself.